Steffallsout's Journals

alona in sonoma

I'm miles past the melancholy street of lonliness, weighted down by a metric ton in place. I'm isolated from the townsfolk. I hear their faint contentness in the cold crisp winds. The branches keep a rhythm my heart so desperately misses. I am horse throat from my cries for help and the moon mocks and torments me. The sun keeps me worn and eases my fear, but every evening leaves me here to count the wishesleft on stars to be forgotten.

so i asked my nephew how old he will be

turning on his birthday this wednesday.. he said old and i just laughed. he's the coolest almost 5 year old i know

when you find out you best friend is preggers

with her second child via facebook makes you wonder.. best friend really? but yay

i love these comics, esp this one

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

total days slept this week..........

Daddy's are suppose to be Immortal!

yesterday my dad had a mild heartattack and he's having surgery today. My mom says he's going to be just fine. But i can't help but be devastated. its sort of a good thing i'm in NJ i'd be worse and i couldn't handle seeing my dad coming home after that.

Dad's hands are bigger for a reason..

they hold yours tight to cross the street to to ease your fear.

They work so hard to To top christmas and birthdays each year.

Daddy's hands will always be big enough for the toughest times

But

who will be the one to hold his, to protect him with their promises.

"Everything

will be just fine"

He'll

say it to us, hoping to stop our tears.

But

his well up too. Cause he can't shield you.

From t

he Fear, of Losing Daddy

Daddy's Girl...

So i've been in New jersey a few days and an hour or so ago my sister texts me saying that our dad is in the hospital. He'd been having chest pain i guess he went once but it continued so he went back and he's there over night.

As I've been getting older i've been more concerned about my parents growning older. Especially my Dad, i'd fall apart without him well rather fall completely apart

this hill is further below sea level than i read on the map.

so what to do with the rest of the days, afternoon . hey.

i'm shiny, sparkling in the sun. I catch your eye, you check me out. take a seat on the custom leather seats, seat warmers. Test drive went smoothly you're smiling. Take me off the lot, we were a match. Times were great, but you deceived me. We're turning into the Lot that you picked me from. You're getting out and i see you hand the keys back to a gentlemen smiling.

i'm just a rental car. nothing more.

Good pep talk Heart

The unexpected hope has been fufilled. Though the advice seemed to be wasted words at the time. It sure has left you knocked on you're ass scrambling to figure out what to do with this turn out and flood of emotions.

but yay team us.