steffallsout

• I'm miles past the melancholy street of lonliness, weighted down by a metric ton in place. I'm isolated from the townsfolk. I hear their faint contentness in the cold crisp winds. The branches keep a rhythm my heart so desperately misses. I am horse throat from my cries for help and the moon mocks and torments me. The sun keeps me worn and eases my fear, but every evening leaves me here to count the wishesleft on stars to be forgotten.

turning on his birthday this wednesday.. he said old and i just laughed. he's the coolest almost 5 year old i know

with her second child via facebook makes you wonder.. best friend really? but yay

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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yesterday my dad had a mild heartattack and he's having surgery today. My mom says he's going to be just fine. But i can't help but be devastated. its sort of a good thing i'm in NJ i'd be worse and i couldn't handle seeing my dad coming home after that.

they hold yours tight to cross the street to to ease your fear.

They work so hard to To top christmas and birthdays each year.

Daddy's hands will always be big enough for the toughest times

But

who will be the one to hold his, to protect him with their promises.

"Everything

will be just fine"

He'll

say it to us, hoping to stop our tears.

But

his well up too. Cause he can't shield you.

From t

he Fear, of Losing Daddy

So i've been in New jersey a few days and an hour or so ago my sister texts me saying that our dad is in the hospital. He'd been having chest pain i guess he went once but it continued so he went back and he's there over night.

As I've been getting older i've been more concerned about my parents growning older. Especially my Dad, i'd fall apart without him well rather fall completely apart

this hill is further below sea level than i read on the map.

i'm shiny, sparkling in the sun. I catch your eye, you check me out. take a seat on the custom leather seats, seat warmers. Test drive went smoothly you're smiling. Take me off the lot, we were a match. Times were great, but you deceived me. We're turning into the Lot that you picked me from. You're getting out and i see you hand the keys back to a gentlemen smiling.

 

i'm just a rental car. nothing more.

The unexpected hope has been fufilled. Though the advice seemed to be wasted words at the time. It sure has left you knocked on you're ass scrambling to figure out what to do with this turn out and flood of emotions.

 

but yay team us.

Dear Heart,

      I know I can only control so little of you, but there is one request i beg of you as I start to feel your gears in action. BRACE YOURSELF! I don't want to stiffle you in anyway. Laugh in sympathetic pity at all of my cynical thoughts and warnings. Comfort the scars as they fear of tearing all over again.

      After a mere sentence you jumped in my eyeballs in excitement and disbelief. Something you've stored as a completed file and my mind had declared over and done with an undesired ending. I had grieved it, learned from it, accepted it and moved on.

      But Heart, while you may have hoped and dreamed for something, anything to change what was. My mind never prepared itself it what was highly improbable to become probable and seemingly in progress. It, I am thrown a-back, confused and honestly shitting-myself-shaking-in-my-chucks scared.

      I'm rooting for you and  your optimistic nature. I'm feeling my doubts armoring up to trump you. good luck.

                                                          -self

I'd shave my head if i didn't like having hair so much. but i have so much, anyone want some? heh just kidding. My goal is to get is way fro-yer than joe trohman's. i'll let you know how that works.

Through monitor screens and past events ,

she seems to have made you envious

The pictures she has in her albulms makes you wish you had her life and could do what she does....

She envies you, and wouldn't wish this on you.

She's often taken up on or begged to have her extra ticket,

she never charges for them, its only fair.

But she gets to watch friends she's known for decades drive away as she waits

until morning to get home.

 

 

I moved to this Shitty new town

Where i had to Transfer to a Shitty Little Store

Where most employees have Shitty Little Brains

And their shitty boring Shifts left the with shitless speech

I'm the scat of the week baby, do what you will but you'll find out it fo to-scafu

I'm gonna shower and head to the roxy,

have a shitty night

What an amazing night. Avoided the most of the rain since i didn't get there until after 3. Had Fun handing out pins, everyone so excited for them. saw so many familar faces the 'regulars" but not so much since the closing of axis/avalon boo. Was really stoked to be covering the show for island and with my team leader.

I never knew harper's did all ages shows so that was a first for me there. and it's always amazing to see them t a small venue

I really enjoyed a loss for words, i've seen them bunches. I knew the bar so i knew where to go where i would be able to see as long as the celtics weren't standing all along the front. I'm almost curious to know if b's homegirl was near to my right because i extremely thrilled for homesick.And I'm really glad Yule shoot your eye out wasn't the last song as i would have missed it. Teamer'suties and all. I had a blast and seemed like so did everyone else :). Joe's hair was especially amazing

And something hardly uttered, i was glad i was able to work that show

Thanks for a rockin night in the mist of blahy stressness

Definately one of the best show's i've seen at harper's, And probably the best of the few shows i've attended even thought last year i had meet and greet. i was honestly shocked most of the crowd wasn't climbing on stage, but yay for that.

It would have been completely worth being fired for haha.  i have pics as well

Stef :)